I am not good at blogging. It’s like trying to pick a cow out of the sky during a tornado. There’s so much debris soaring through my life and I can never find a place to start a story. Every story runs in and out of another long, overly drunk and obnoxious story. But I can tell you that life is beyond amazing right now. It is considerably the most confusing and stressful point of my life thus far and for strange reasons I’ve never felt better.
I will be graduating in five short weeks and I have no cement plans for work, money or school. I am enrolled in another nine month program but am planning on de-enrolling (ha) and playing the game “living on the edge” instead. I know for absolute certainty I cannot afford to be alive after September is over and can only hope wonderful things fall into my lap. It’s not all a shot in the dark, we’ve all got plans and goals, we all strive for something that’s just a little out of reach. And if you don’t you’re a fucking idiot. (point made)
The jobs I’m trying to land right now are dream jobs. And that’s possibly why this is an extremely frustrating time. These jobs don’t come but maybe once in a lifetime, especially only being 23 and feels weird to say this but after ten or so years playing music, I’m still a rookie in the industry.
The music industry is an interesting and chaotic son of a bitch and I am completely enthralled by it. Like an overnight love with an english girl. It’s complete angst and it’s completely beautiful. I am infatuated with everything in my life right now. It’s a fucking disaster and I’m detoxing. Fuck.
I’m gonna stop rambling. Because my lips move like lies, or whatever you call it. Maybe I’m just still torn about society and how people don’t get it. You people. All of you. No one fucking gets it. What is it? I don’t know. But whatever it is, no one is getting it.
The next month is going to be vigorous. Relentless. Timid. Ballsy.
I need to lose this monkey on my back and I need to quit antagonizing cab drivers. I’m gonna tell you a story. Keeps your eyes open.
